Kenapa dia tak nampak?

Okay, title tu bughuk sikit.tapi tak kisah lah.haish. boleh menjerit tak? Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!
Why,
Why Mr.wrong(not a real name) tak nampak orang yang hargai dia.
Why dia tak appriciate orang yang lebih ikhlas dekat dia? *eww sounds legit. _. *
Seriously, confuse. Saya penat.pening.confuse.lonely. kenapa dia susah sangat nak faham. You know what? I've been waiting for him for a long time. How about 1 years?lama kan. Ergh, even dah pindah sekolah pun rasa macam takde perasaan kat mana mana orang. Okay maybe Mr.wrong ingat saya ni  budak2 or whatever.but at least, i want to hear unexpecteble words from him. Imean.ergh, whatever.
Couple?please jangan sebut.agak geli.i dont want our relationship to be like that. I just wanna here what am i to him.i want to hear that he will be waiting for me like i did.
I never in love or have a crush with someone before. Sounds legit. Agh, i know.but, you know what, waiting for someone that we know that could not be ours is painful. Teadrops every single day.
And every single day, im waiting for his reply. It's painful. A lot. Until now, we haven't start our conversation yet.last date, 7/8 about 3 or 4 week.again, it's painful. Day by day, time after time , i think i wanna kill him by myself.

p/s:Seriously, i miss you so much and i hope you know. I'm waiting for you. Forever.